this is just a reminder that i once existed.
That I was born on a rainy day,
It was on a month in the middle of the year
– it just started, but seemed like ending all of a sudden.
This is a reminder that I was once part of your life.
Just another person on the list
with whom you may or may not have interacted with
– I was there, at the moment, then gone.
This is a reminder that I was once part
of this vacuum you call the universe
I was once part of this non-empty void,
always have been intriguing,
This is a reminder that I was once a being,
who felt waves of overwhelming emotions,
who have taken needles into my veins
who have tasted water
who have shared a bread or two.
I have thought about the very meaning of life
I was once there
Like how you are here,
But hello seems like incomplete
when not complemented with something else
Don’t you think?
Surely that hello wouldn’t linger
in the air forever.
Sometimes, infinities are a bum to our limited existence.
After all, infinities are reminders of what we can’t be.
No, Uncle John, we’re not infinite
I’m sorry but all we are,
are just shells and caskets
conscious, we may be,
but even premium caskets rust.
There’s no way around being ephemeral.
There’s only one way.
One way to go.
One way to go…
for all of this to go away.
And I’ve chosen to go that only way.
//i don’t know man it’s been a long time since I last posted something here i kinda forgot how to actually write stuff im mentally exhausted and im emotionally drained so tbh i dont really know where to draw motivation from i have too much stuff going on and i thought i could use them as a source of ideas but nah oh no i cant even form one decent stanza also i am trying to avoid real life responsibilities and really writing this right makes no sense at all if not stupid i should just go back to studying for my exams but im t o o tired idk i hope my future self who’s reading this is in a much better place
(ps) the background image has nothing to do with anything written here but it was the first portrait picture i laid my eyes on in unsplash so whatever,,,,,,also i wrote the above “poem(?)” a year ago